the heart remembers. poetry.

I don't typically write poetry but this came to me. I wrote it down. I hope that it's tolerable. I don't even know how to write poetry. Hopefully though, you'll still enjoy it.


*the heart remembers*

the heart remembers
the misdirected anger in your eyes
the bruises that never really healed
the scrambling to get away from you
the others who just watched it happen
the heart remembers


the heart remembers
I wanted to make you happy
But it was an uphill battle
I didn't want to fight
I was getting no where
I lashed out, "You are just like your father"
that hurt her. you told me that I didn't love you
when really, you didn't even know me.
the heart remembers


the heart remembers
our song, "Just Wait"
we believed we were meant to be
we laughed. we played. we loved.
you were so kind. I was so lucky to be with you.
Distance seperated us. You married another woman.
the heart remembers


the heart remembers
the drinking. the dancing. the bar.
you said you'd drive me home. you lied.
you held me down. I cried. I begged you not to.
You didn't care. I was a virgin.
the heart remembers


the heart remembers
the moments of happiness
followed by the fighting
why am i doing this again?
the breakup. the denial of ever loving me.
now you pretend that I was never anything to you
the heart remembers


the heart remembers
the way you looked at me
those round little eyes
and only tufts of hair. mange.
I nursed you to health.
You loved me with unconditional puppy love
the heart remembers


the heart remembers
the meticulous lies
not only to her but to your children
all of the other women. thirteen.
you said you still loved us but there was this one
who you wanted to plan your life with
she didn't want you though
relationships based on deception
you lied. and you want us to take you back?
the heart remembers


the heart remembers
the phone call. the race to the hospital.
the waiting. the unknown.
the "he's going to be a vegetable"
you wouldn't want to live that way
we told them to let you go
the heart remembers


the heart remembers
you asked my friends about me
you hugged me and said, "Happy Birthday"
you stole my heart. you loved me.
you made me laugh
and i'm still in love with you
the heart remembers


the heart remembers
the bustling crowd. the smell of filth.
nervousness washed over me. nausea.
you read my fear. pulled me closer to you.
whispered that you were there with me
everything would be ok. i was safe.
the heart remembers