bringing in the new year

We all count down the seconds until the new year and then we wish each other a happy new year. but really, what do we mean? do we wish that this year will be happier than last year? Or is it simply a phrase that we say and not think about it. After all, we say happy birthday but with each year we come closer to our death. A large percentage of people spend the hours before the midnight hour drinking. People tend to drink to avoid things. We drink to forget and yet somehow, being inhibited is what we think we have to achieve in order to be celebrating. But I digress.

Here I am. Running into the new year. I have decided to run because it is not something that I can avoid. I cannot return to last year. Nor do I really have any desire to do so. Last year was not overflowing with happiness or anything that I yearn to return to. Yes, there were some great moments. But those moments have passed. So Happy New Year. I look forward to it for the sole reason that it has no option but to be different. Not necessarily happier per se, but different. I look forward to reaching goals. I look forward to exploring new job opportunities. I look forward to new relationships. I look forward to reconfirming old relationships. I hope to recover old friends and gain new ones. I hope for happiness. Those moments that remind you why you get up each morning. Those moments that you cherish for some time to come. I hope for love. Maybe not in my life but atleast in the life of those around me. Love in the lives of all of my engaged friends. But if love finds me, maybe, just maybe I'll recognize it and then maybe I'll acknowledge it.

Cheers to our new goals. Cheers to our dreams. Cheers to our hopes. And I look forward to writing new stories from those experiences. So look out 2006. Here I come.