Rotation of people.

Sometimes, there are people in your life that you cannot figure out exactly why they are a part of your life. That is, of course, only if you think that all things happen for a reason or that there is always something to learn from the individuals in your life.

Right now, I'm going through a bit of a funk. I don't really know where I am going with my job. I don't know if it's really time to move on or if I should just suck it up and enjoy my good insurance and 401k plan. And I really want a puppy but with my job in limbo and the possibility of moving on elsewhere to a new apartment, etc, I'm afraid to commit to a puppy. All of my near and dear friends are not so near. But that's not their fault. I moved away. Now, I miss them. And then there's my love life, or rather, my not-so-vibrant love life. Here, by not-so-vibrant I mean does not exist. Fabulous, eh? So I would say that right now, I'm not all that satisfied nor all that happy with my current situation across the board.

But I got to thinking the other day, that there are some people in my life that I cannot figure out why they are in my life. Supposedly, we go through the ups and downs in life to learn things. Ideally, of course.

For example: I get into a relationship. I'm crazy about the guy. I finally let myself feel and care. Then I learn that he's a really angry person who hurts other people instead of dealing with his own issues. So, I get out of it. Personal issues that he refused to deal with. Cared about me but not enough to not physically hurt me. Ok, lesson learned. Next.

That's a pretty cut and dry thing. Not to hard to comprehend. Then there's the other situations that are more convoluted than not. Relationship goes well. Lack of communication. Lack of a relationship at all. It ends. He holds on. Still doesn't communicate. Finds a new girl. Expresses that he wishes it was me. Part of me likes to feel wanted. Part of me wants to puke in my hands. Here, I don't see the lesson. Clingy people suck? Sometimes, I wonder if some people just need to be cut out of your life. Move on. No talking. No seeing. Complete and total rejection. But not rejection in a pro-active sort of way but just simple rejection. It being time to move on. Time to not think about how to figure out this stupid dysfunctional relationship/ whatever. Why should there be unnecessary people in our lives? Just to piss us off?

Maybe relationships and people should be like a med students rotation. You stay just to learn enough about the person to be able to consider yourself a well-rounded individual. If you like the subject, you decide that will be your speciality. If you know it's not a good fit, you move on. Surgeons don't go back to geriatrics. They stay surgeons. If we know that a person is no longer a good fit, why should we continue to entertain their presence and frustrations in our lives?