TGIF!

I'm so ready for this week to be over. I just feel so tired this week and I'm not really sure why... well, besides the obvious fact that I'm not getting enough sleep. For the past couple of weeks, while my brother was visiting, I was more aware of my sleeping patterns. I made sure that my brother got in bed at decent hour and tended to go to bed at the same time or shortly afterwards. Now, I sit at home and sip a glass of wine while watching tv and playing with my puppy. All of a sudden, I realize that the late night show is now over and I should probably go to bed or really, I should have gone to bed long before then. So now, it's the end of the week and I know that given 5 minutes, I could fall asleep at work. Not from boredom but just from the fact that I'm exhausted and all that I really want to do is sleep. I've decided that I am going home early so that I can hopefully get a nap in before this evening. After all, I DO want to be awake tonight after 9pm. I don't have to go to bed early.

I have stopped writing for a bit. For awhile, I had nothing to write or rather, everything that passed through my mind was highly emotional and not happy. I didn't feel like writing that down for once. So I just didn't write. Typically, I exchange my writing for the brewing that I do inside. This time I traded it for anger. Not on purpose but it seemed to be the next emotion that past through my life. And then, I didn't want to write either. Angry writing is exhausting cause it pulls out all the emotions and puts them on paper and I have to actually acknowledge that the emotion that is on the page is the one that I was feeling. And that's no fun.

Now, besides being tired, life is fine. I am okay with my work right now. I am feeling like I have value with my increasing responsibilities and increasing knowledge base. Although, this work isn't ideally my thing, I am doing it now and not hating it. The confines of a cubicle are sometimes suffocating but then I just take the opportunity to get up and walk around. Socialize for a couple of minutes. I don't tend to socialize much at work. Mostly because I have an expectation and desire for a separation of Church and State-- that is, a separation of Work and Home. I don't mind minimally talking about my life. But I don't like to talk about politics, love life or anything else personal with co-workers. I think it roots from other co-workers who share too much. I do not want to be them. I do not want co-workers to be involved in my personal life. It's just messy and I don't need to have in depth conversations with co-workers to achieve the goal. That goal being to come to work and do work.

I am excited about the possibilities in my future. I think I am going to start taking grad school entrance exams. I'm thinking about law school but realize that I can't afford it. So if I take the test and do fabulously, maybe someone will throw money at me. That's my plan. I'll let you know how it turns out.

Oh, and I think that Nora and I are going to go to a Dog Park this weekend. I'm excited. She's not really a fan of other dogs. She's more of a people dog. I expect the experience to be interesting nonetheless.