bah... decisions.

I am feeling ridiculously torn right now. I have some time left before I have to start school in the fall. I also have some time before I will even know where that will be. And now, I don't have a job as of the end of March.

Really, this leaves me with lots of options. I've always wanted to live in New York. Spending a little more than the summer there would be an awesome time. Plus I have lots of friends in the city. I've also thought about living on the West Coast for a while just to be around my friends who live out there. And, now, supposedly there may or may not be a job (the same job that I have now and just do remotely) waiting for me back where I just moved from. I don't know how I feel about moving back for that job. It doesn't make as much money as I potentially could. It has crossed my mind to just move back, take the job and then find something different and tell the old job to shove it. (After all, they are being very difficult about this whole process anywho. I was PISSED about it all last week but I'm over that now.)

Still, really, I just have one goal.

To live cheaply, as cheaply as possible, and make good money and save up to go back to school in the fall.

That's the goal. There are lots of other things that would be great to go along with that like not living with my parents, living with someone to cheapen the cost of rent, having someone I love nearby (this is the more than friends insinuation), having friends nearby, enjoying my time before school and saving LOTS of money (yeah, I know I already said that).

NYC offers a lot. But just with the cost of living, it may or may not (most likely will) defeat the main goal---to save cash for school. Ugh. And I don't have a job up there yet.

The place that I just moved from is still attractive--after all, I miss it now. But there's the cost of moving. The fact that I don't LOVE my job. (But I will HAVE a job.) And most of my close friends there moved away last year.

And I could also stay here. The rent's cheap--parents don't make me pay anything yet. But living here leaves me unemployed and looking for a job where I will probably not make over $25,000 a year. That's IF I can even get a job here. I'm over qualified for a lot of jobs and under qualified for others--teaching at the local university, for example. There's no real IT shops here. I could do one of many minimum wage jobs. But that's not bringing in the cash that I'll need for the first year of school.

So here I am, absolutely torn with no idea on what to do. Decisions. Ugh.