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I can't stand when I go through these negative times. I've not have completely positive thoughts this week. I get nervous about going to law school. I wonder if maybe I'm just supposed to grow up to be a dog trainer. I love working with animals. But then I think, I love working with people too. Law school will open up doors for me to do some of the work I've wanted to do. Finally, I will have the education to do so.

I also wonder if I should just go to the first law school I've gotten into. I'm super psyched about getting into this school but then I wonder if maybe I should just go to the cheapest school so I can get out of debt the fastest possible. I look forward to being somewhere were I have more friends. I miss the daily interactions of seeing friends or even the weekly interactions. I miss having good friends close by. Luckily, I've gotten to hang out with some friends here. It just seems so different because my friends here are getting married or are married and I haven't even found someone who will date me longer than a year. The one time that I've been proposed to, the man was one some serious drugs and had a brain injury. I'm not even sure I can count it as a proposal. It should probably be more of a spontaneous comment by a non-well man.

I want to do what I'm supposed to do. I want to do what will make me happy but I'm not sure that I even know what that is at times. There are so many variables that I do not have control over. All I can do know is move forward. Pursue what I think might be right and see what happens. If nothing else, I can quit law school and become a dog trainer. An interesting life story, at least.