feeling the music.

I don't know really what exactly it is about music but I love it. I love the beats and the rhythms. I love the instruments and digitally enhanced sounds--ok, I don't love those. As much as I like to dance and enjoy the music, I think I personalize a lot of songs. Maybe it's my writing but I think that overall, lyrics are a very important part of music for me. That is excluding jazz and blues pieces without any lyrics. I still love those.

There's a few songs on this blog now. Most of them have some meaning or remind me of fond memories. Others remind me of not so great memories. Still, it's the combination of the emotion and the music that moves me. I quite literally cry when I hear some songs. Not every word of lyrics is applicable to me or experiences in my life. It's the basic sentiment of the song and the feelings it evokes. Maybe it's crazy that I let songs affect me like this. But that's just how it is.

I'm loving the song "teachme" by Musiq. It reminds me of wanting a relationship to work but there just seems to be something missing. Something that may be irreparable. But I love the song because he wants it to work and he wants to try his best to make the necessary changes. He wants to know how to love her. It's a question that more couples should ask each other so that neither party is disappointed because their significant other doesn't know what they want.

The song "White Flag" by Dido reminds me of an ex in college. It also makes me think about my own stubbornness. Going down with the ship, no matter what. "I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder." Damn stubborn. No white flag.

"Water Runs Dry" by Boyz II Men just serves as a reminder. "Why do we hurt each other? Why do we push love away?" Reminds me that the petty things are not important when it comes to a relationship. "Some people will work things out and some just don't know how to change." You care about someone for who they are and shouldn't let the petty things taint the relationship.

"This joint right here makes me want to.... whooo!" MJ is awesome. Her song "Just Fine" is my uplifting song reminded me that my life is pretty good already. Yeah, there's some things I'd love to have but overall, "I wouldn't change my life, my life's just fine."

The song "So Simple" was a favorite song of mine some time the year before last. I'm sure that it was referencing a relationship that I was going through at the time. I don't really remember right now. But I do know, it's not so simple.

Ms. Alicia Keys is one of my favorite artists. Her song "Wreckless Love" was one of those that brought me to tears. It just reminds me of the beginning of some relationships I've had. When it's fabulous and fun. When you do spontaneous things and "just could not get enough of it." Then things change or the flame is lost for some reason or another. And we reminisce on what used to be and want it back. Sometimes, I miss the wreckless love.

"The Way that I love you" by Ashanti is just a song that talks about cheating. I got cheated on in college. "I found out we were living a lie." It also reminds me of high school when my high school sweetheart married someone else. "I know now that you don't love me the same, the way that I love you." The wedding was a shock. I got the invite 5 months after we broke up. Tough times.

"hey there delilah" is just the perfect love song--if there is such a thing. He just compliments her throughout the song. Making a long distance relationship work. Looking to the future. Beautiful.

"Come Close" is one of my favorite songs. I used to wear green contacts in college. I had a friend that used to ask me if my eyes were still green. Another love song.

I was once told that "One wish" should be our song by the person I was dating at the time. It was after some drama in the relationship and we were searching for ways to fix it. He mentioned this song. I'm not sure how he randomly chose this song. "If I had one wish, we'd be best friends." Sweet and hopeful.

"Let Me Love You" brings back flashes of almost being thrown down some stairs by my ex until his roommate grabbed him and started fighting him. Somehow, I still cared for him. And stayed too long after that display of violence. You can't change them. You just can't. For a long time, I couldn't listen to that song without tearing up and my heart just aching and feeling like I wanted to vomit, all at the same time.

"I promise myself I will love me first genuinely." I had to get to this point to pick up the pieces. "I remember" is somehow an encouraging song. The love is over but it's for the best. No reason to lose oneself for the sake of another.

I could go on and on about songs and what they've meant in relation to my life. I'll spare you though. All of the aforementioned songs are in my playlist below.

"These words are my own. From my heart flow." ~ Natasha Bedingfield