sex. and the city.

I finally went today and saw the Sex and the City movie. I'm a huge fan of the series. I own all of the seasons. I've watched the episodes multiple times. The movie was fantastic. It still had enough twists and turns and wasn't just a story about how their lives ended up after they all seemed to find their guy at the end of the sixth season.

ever thine. ever mine. ever ours.

I liked that quote. It just seems so positive. So hopeful.

I feel so Carrie sometimes. Just pensive. I missed that she didn't write more in the movie. I am quite reflective myself. I think about the relationships that I had in my life. I reflect upon them and where they went wrong or where the relationship was no longer working. Of course, all relationships take work. Some people want relationships to come easily. To just work. To ease along. Unfortunately, I'm quite a cynic. I question people's motives and I analyze people's actions--probably too much. I fundamentally believe that people don't change. Small changes maybe but not sweeping changes. I once believed that I could change someone if I loved them enough. It was a fleeting thought that carried with it a lot of pain. The experience reconfirmed that people don't change.

Really though, maybe overthinking it all is not good. Maybe it prevents one from doing certain things because they've thought about the actions too much.

There was another quote in the movie that I cannot find. It was something about that being in love is not determined by the length of the relationship. You can be in love with someone in weeks or months or years. I think I believe that. I used to say that I don't really believe or understand the concept of being in love. I do know about the pain afterwards though. It is tough to move on. I once dated someone and then things got not so great and we broke up. A year plus later, we dated again both at a better place with each other. Still, it didn't work out but that was just personalities.

I admit that I cried in the movie. I was so affected by the ploy of the characters. I mean, I guess that's the point of the show. As much as the 4 women have very different personalities, they are different in a way that allows most women to identify with one of them. Still, all of them are looking for love. And they all find it in their own way. It was a little too marriage-centric for me. Not everyone has to get married to find happiness. I've contemplated that once. Just once.

My biggest take-away is that I wish I had girlfriends like that. My friends from home are all married or engaged now. There's too much distance for the closeness of chatting about everyday life. We don't really talk about relationships either. But I would agree with Carrie, sometimes you need girlfriends to be able to tell the good from the bad. Or the ones that you need to move on from even though it hurts. Or rather, because it hurts.

Luckily, I'm in New York City now. Looking for the perfect apt. The perfect job--by going to school. And the closeness of friends.