It's been far too long since I've written. Writing is therapeutic for me. I believe that it is probably therapeutic for a lot of people but many never try it. It's been an interested past few months. Some of the worst moments have happened. Think I've inwardly reflected on them so no need to delve into them here. I had someone once tell me that they were going to quit reading my blog cause they'd rather talk to me. The thing is that writing is freeing and each sentence that I write and re-read allows me to delve further into my own thoughts. That same process does not happen while I am speaking. It's a completely different process.
I have realized something else too. I need more friends. My best friend from high school and I seem to of had some falling out. She's in denial about being completely focused on her and her relationship with her new husband and has forgotten about her friends. My closest friend and I live far apart and do better when we are closer together. We talk on the phone inconsistently. But few of my friends live in the same city. I have set myself up so that it's easiest to try and develop a relationship and best friend in the same person. But then I have no one else. It's a bit of a dangerous scenario. Especially for someone like me who needs to reflect.
I saw a movie recently-- The Bucket List. It's a good flick. Definitely one that will make you tear up. They do a great job of drawing the characters out so that you identify with them. You almost feel their struggle and their experiences. At one point, Carter is talking to Edward about Egyptian heaven. Carter explains that everyone gets asked two questions. One: Have you found joy in your life? Two: Has your life brought joy to others? And the answers to those questions determined whether you would be allowed to enter. I do know that those questions can make you reflect a bit. It's pretty easy to probably answer yes to both of those questions. Of course most people have family and friends who would vouch for them. But then what about strangers. What about people that you may never see again but brighten their world just a bit. It's really all in the little things. It's the little things that make the world a compassionate place.
I have realized something else too. I need more friends. My best friend from high school and I seem to of had some falling out. She's in denial about being completely focused on her and her relationship with her new husband and has forgotten about her friends. My closest friend and I live far apart and do better when we are closer together. We talk on the phone inconsistently. But few of my friends live in the same city. I have set myself up so that it's easiest to try and develop a relationship and best friend in the same person. But then I have no one else. It's a bit of a dangerous scenario. Especially for someone like me who needs to reflect.
I saw a movie recently-- The Bucket List. It's a good flick. Definitely one that will make you tear up. They do a great job of drawing the characters out so that you identify with them. You almost feel their struggle and their experiences. At one point, Carter is talking to Edward about Egyptian heaven. Carter explains that everyone gets asked two questions. One: Have you found joy in your life? Two: Has your life brought joy to others? And the answers to those questions determined whether you would be allowed to enter. I do know that those questions can make you reflect a bit. It's pretty easy to probably answer yes to both of those questions. Of course most people have family and friends who would vouch for them. But then what about strangers. What about people that you may never see again but brighten their world just a bit. It's really all in the little things. It's the little things that make the world a compassionate place.
1 comment:
Great points you make at the end. There is a special person inside of you, its great to see that when the walls are let down. But then again, that's the hardest part of friendship, trust. You are opening yourself up and becoming vulnerable to others discretions, and if that trust is broken, it becomes that much harder to give to someone else. It may not mean much to you, but I am praying for you in what seems like a difficult time, for you too find that fulfilling joy, not just the instantaneous happiness. Hope you are doing well, and hope to see you soon. - Robbie
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